When God Writes Your Love Story...Originally written 01\23\2007

So, I found some old journal entries, and found this one. This is from the first time I ever picked up and read When God Writes Your Love Story by Eric and Leslie Ludy....This was from January 23,2007.. But, I thought i'd share it anyway.... :)

Yesterday I started reading When God Writes Your Love Story by Eric and Leslie Ludy. I can't put the book down. I am in aw at the things God has shown me. Some good, Some well, I don't want to say bad, I guess sad. I realized through reading the book, that I not only put God to the side, but I started taking control of well pretty much eveything in my life. God was just there. I soon realized I was becoming the per son I was all through highschool, someone I don't want to be. I had put up the wall again, and was keeping everyone at arms length. Including people I really care about. I wasn't letting them see me for me. I was pushing them away. I've felt blah latley since after christmas, I thought it was because I was still bumbed about not going to Cornerstone. Which in a way I still am. I miss it. But instead of seeing what god has for me at home, and why he wants me here. I was to busy thinking of all the things i'm missing by not being at Cornerstone. Which was making being at home even harder.

       But I decided not to keep that wall up anymore. I want to learn to trust people, which is something i've always had a hard time at. I want to let people in, and not hold them at arms length. I've also completely given full control of every part of my life to god, which isn't easy for me to do. But i'm doing it. I am trusting god completely, and not like I used to " Trust" him. In the past when I would trust god, it would be like this " ok god I trust you, but I think you should do this and this in this part of my life" Then soon god was pushed to the side, again. I don't want that anymore. I want to know god not only as my savoir, but the lover of my soul. My first love. Yup, that's what I want, and plan on doing.

     The book had a really awesome way looking at Purity too. Eric Ludy was talking to the guys in this part of the book, But I also got a lot out of it. He said whatever you are doing, imagine your future spouse is with you, and if it's not god's plan for you to marry, imagine god is standing next to you when you're doing something. Think of what god, and your future spouse would think and feel in they seen or or heard you say a certian thing. Think of how they would feel. It's a great way to remeber to " Does him good, not evil all the days of her life." Proverbs 31:12. Living for the person god has intended you to marrie ( If that's his will) all the days of your life, even  before you know them isn't easy. But I think what Eric Ludy suggests is a great way to live for you're spouse, and not only your spouse ( if god has choosen to have you be married) but to live for God.

    Now, what I learned about true love...girls, I know you can remember this....Sitting in front of the tv in your pj's watching as prince charming finally finds cinderella, puts the glass slipper on her foot. The prince had finally found his true love. After embarrassing cinderella, and kissing her the prince and cinderella wisk off to be married, and live happily ever after....aw, the movie every girls dream is based on. Finding the prince. As a little girl the "perfect" prince can be described like this the typical ken doll ( blond hair, blue eyes, musclar) + a white horse= the "Perfect Prince".  As a little girl gets older, and become a teen,then eventually an adult that's when you replace those ken dolls with ( I can hear the guys grumbling now) yes, chick flicks. Because all girs know that once you fall in love you're going to be on could 9 24/7, showered with love, chocolote, flowers, and affection 24/7, and you and your guy will never get sick of eachother. there will be nothing but holding hands, kisses, cuddling, looking at eachother and feeling no one else is there. It will be happily ever after, with the sappy love song in the back ground that makes all the girls cry, and think, i want that romance. To be sweeped off our feet, and never have a bad feeling ever, because hey, your in love!

    Yes, I know you don't have to tell me, I've read to many christian love storys, and seen one to many chick flicks ( even though a girl wonders, is there such a thing? ) aw, the feeling of being in love. It's nice, But yes, now comes the reality check.  My definition of true love- Choosing to love someone even when you don't feel like it. Putting the other person first, when you want to be selfish, and have things you're way. Forgiving completely like christ forgives, which means, when the person says their sorry, and you say that's ok you forgive them, you don't dwell on it or bring it up again in the future. Act like it never happened. Then being completely patient with the person no matter how hard it is. that's what true love is. you choose to love them, and all that really matters is making the other person happy, and lifting them up.

  Now, since were being relistic. the perfect guy isn't all that perfect. They mess up, and drive a girl insane! But at the end of the day, if you know that person is who God has made for you, no matter how insane or mad they make you only one fact remains. you love them, because you choose to. Even when you don't feel like loving them, or even talking to them, you love them. If you haven't read it yet, I highly recommend reading When God Writes Your Love Story! It's a great book!!! Well, Dishes are calling my name. So i'm off to get them done. Unless someone wants to do them for me ha-ha. hey, can't blame a girl for trying.

Melinda